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Name: Kelly
Birthday: 4/10/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Fashion,Knitting, losing weight and all that good stuff, also if any of u girls want to IM me plz do any of those sn u can IM just tell me u r from the sites so i dont go who the hell are u. I also like Music-Green Day, Alkaline Trio, No Doubt,Wezzer, Radio Head, Tool ,Deftone, Alien Ant Farm, Nirvana, Metallica, Alice in Chains, Kittie, Foo Fighers.I also am interseted in animal rights. I am a vegitarian hopfully vegan when i get my stuff straight.
Expertise: I am good with Fashion type stuff like knitting and sewing, I am also great at making my self feel guilty and horrible alot of the time.Working out i am good at.
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AIM:  xhellokittysx
MSN: prettypagekitty
Yahoo:  prettypurplekittys
Member Since:
1/26/2005
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| I thought randomly to day how is my first ed site, it is still the same i am still the same a binging pig, I am starting somthing new tomrrow
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| I am not what i want to be still not that weight still the same, I have a new site and that shit, I suck, | | |
| Ill be better tommrrow. I havent weighed my self in a while and i dont know if i will for a while longer . i am hoping that by the next time i weigh my self i am 135 or less cuz i was 139 a few days ago and that is super gross. yea my site sucks but what ever this site is stuipd. I think i might just stop writing in here. Well i think i will unless some thing happens. I am not going to come back here til i get to 125 so if i get what i think will hapen ill be back in a few weeks, no one cares so what ever fuck this site i dont care and no one else dose. BYE i am am seriouly not coming back til then | | |
| Yea I dont use this much any more so i thought I would up date more maybe. Well I went shopping for food but i found low cal dinner food so ill be ok. The plan i have that might work for a while is eat fruit in the moring and then some home and either eat some fruit or veggies and have dinner or just wait til dinner. I think by doinf this ill be under atleast 300 a day but hopfully less. I am also going to be working out more only cuz me and my ex dont hang out as much cuz he has practice with his band. It kinda makes me upset that he is not seeing me as much but the only good thing i get out of feeling this way is even more control.. Last year after we broke up and i fealt some what like this i was in control and i would not eat unless some one told me too and i would work out like crazy. I want to work out like crazy and not eat . I want to be the smallest cuz all the people i know seem to lose weight and i feel like a fat lard. I want to be the smallest out of all of them. I know by the end of the school year if things go as planed i will lose atleast 30 more pounds or more. i am not going to let and thing get in my way any more. | | |
| So latly School has been some what werid the people there sux and I feel huge yet people say o u look so skinny compared to the last few years, Latly i know I have been under 600 and that seems like way too much I need a plan that I can due during the week and agust on week ends. Like i dont eat breakfast and i know i should i want to but i would feel guilty eatting makes me feel guilty. In other news my soccer season has started and I am okish what I love about soccer season is play and practicng cuz I sweat and run a bunch so burn burn burn. I have practice tommrrow. ok I am making a plan of or some what guide line of food I can have if i want it in the moring.
BreakFast-Cerial 120 and below or just fruit
Lunch-Diet Soda
Dinner-Boca Chile 150 for the whole thing and it is really filling
If I dont fuck up I would be about 300 or below i want to try and stay under that from now on. I hope this year is like last or i lose more. i lost like 25-30ish pounds last year that did not take me long cuz i got very stricted for a while and was exerising exssively. and i started that in the beinging of the year so if i do start what i use to do ill lose more. I want to get to 100 as soon as possible cuz i am right now in the middle of 135-140 and that is a gusses cuz i have not weight my self in a few weeks only cuz it will depress me if i am not where i want to be. I keep telling myself soon i will be what i want and ill be happy and every one will love me and want to be my friend but since this life style i have lost most people i use to be close friends cuz i have become very withdrawn and not wanting to go and talke cuz i have it set in my mine no one wants to talk or be my friend. I only have one real best friend in school who hangs out with me at lunch and my best friend who lives close who cares about me. I am rambling.I hate how i cant make friend and I always feel i am not good enough. As i said b4 i have it set in my mined people will love me when i am so little. every one will be like u are so hot even though some say it now i dont belive them.
I just got some random mood wing and i changed my mined on eatting i am going to fast til i am told to eat i bet i can make it for a good while i dont even want food during school and i will take my time in the moring getting ready and yea fasting will make me feel better and when i go to my bff house i wont eatthere cuz they have no low cal food so i will not take the chace and ill do this plan til i feel happy with my body and i get the feeling that that day may never come | | |
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